Happy St. Patty’s

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Embracing the Irishness I didn’t know I had until 3 years ago when I found my birthdad. Happy St. Patty’s Day WordPress Nation. Today’s song of the day has always been a favorite of mine, even before I knew I was Irish. I am disappointed with the video for this song. I always picture a fairy or witches ceremonial circle dancing around in the woods/Forrest in a very magical type of setting when I hear this song. Something like what the picture below depicts. At any rate, this song is appropriate for today with all it’s Celtic lore.

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Autograph

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Autograph

By: Nelson

I think I’ve seen every film you’ve been in
First in line for your magazine
On my bedroom wall you’re staring back at me?

I blew my trust fund, to get to know you
I write you letters and you don’t write back,
but that’s ok~I’ll always love you anyway

I just want your autograph(your autograph)
a sign, I met you in the past(touched your hand)
There’s nothing I won’t do,
So what I gotta give to get an autograph from you?

Autograph
Autograph
Instrumental

I’m Number one on your fan club roster,
You’re number one on the Billboard charts
I don’t think I’ve made to your speed dial yet,
but~ it’s a start.

I think you think we got a lot in common
We’re both in love with you and that’s a fact
Till you cry on my shoulder
I need a little piece of you to tide me over

I just want your autograph(your autograph)
Some Proof I had the Balls to ask (took the chance)

Face Time and One Line,
There’s nothing I won’t do~
to get a Autograph from you?

Autograph
Autograph

Instrumental

I hope this doesn’t come across as scary,
I hope it’s you when I lose my cherry
Crazy maybe
Fate has had Stranger things have happen.

I just want your autograph
Just maybe, you’ll see me on the fair,
Face time, One Love,
There’s nothing that I won’t do
For an autograph from you.

Yeah
Autograph
Autograph

Signing and Singing

Today I have two songs of the day and they are inter-related in my world And childhood memory. And today, as my energy connection to the universe worked it’s magic as it often does and has been doing quite often lately, it radiated and coalesced to happy memories from my childhood today.

When I walked in to teach today, there was someone in the music room and she had music playing while she was working. She was playing the Carpenters station on Pandora on her phone. She asked me if I grew up listening to the Carpenters. I told her that I had and that my favorite song by them was the song “Sing”. Though I didn’t share with her why, I was reminiscing in my head as to why I had fond memories of that song. I remembered that some show I watched used to sing that song and also do it in sign language. I was then immediately reminded of another song from my childhood that I loved for the same reason, one from a show I watched that they also did in sign language. And that song was “Sunshine on my shoulder” by John Denver. When I got in the car, what comes on my playlist but “Sunshine on my shoulder”. How uncanny. But this has become commonplace these days in my world that it’s losing it’s fascination.

After I got home and researched which shows these two songs were on, I found that “Sing” was actually written for Sesame Street, and then popularized by the Carpenters. And it was indeed shown in sign language on some of the episodes. And then “Sunshine on my shoulder” was from a short educational series that was focused on sign language called “Signing with Cindy”.

For whatever reason, I was enthralled by sign language when I was younger apparently, and that made me like songs that much more. It is a bit ironic, because a few years ago, a show that had a lot of impact on my life was “Switched at birth” which dealt with sign language and the deaf community. I particularly followed the show more because of the theme of genetic identity crises based on them being raised by non-bio parents in the same way I was, though I was adopted and they were switched. But many of the situations resonated with me. But as I watched the show, I felt alot of empathy towards the deaf community.

My husband and I were just discussing something regarding the deaf community as it came up during the Nascar race on Sunday when there was a little interlude showing, I believe it was Denny Hamlin, who was corresponding with a young fan of his who was deaf and hoped to become a race car driver some day. My husband and I were trying to ponder out how that might be possible and how bad we felt for their limitations. We were trying to think of any possible solution that could be feasible.

So below are You Tube videos of the specific versions of my two songs of the day. A stroll down memory lane from my childhood today.

 

My Immortal

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 “My Immortal”
By: Evanescence

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me aloneThese wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
All of me… me… me…

Song Thoughts:
I’ve had this song running through my head since yesterday because it has the word “captivate” in it and yesterday’s word prompt of the day was captivating. This morning when I got in my car and put on my playlist, it was one of the first songs that came on. I have always been psychic, or an energy worker or a manifester of sorts….whatever you want to call this sort of “magic”. I also had a psychic moment again this morning where as I was walking in to school to teach, a wave came over me that told me that my first student would not be there today, and sure enough she wasn’t. She has not missed any lessons this year, and generally hasn’t missed many in the past from absences. My brainwaves are in tune with the universe right now.
This morning as I was listening to this song, it took on new meaning to me. My interpretation today in my life for this song is that “my immortal” is my inner child, the child in me that was broken so long ago. It made me reflect while listening to the lyrics that in some ways, even though I did experience my childhood in the moment with much anxiety and trauma, somehow as a child, it seemed like although I was greatly affected in the moment, I was able to let go mentally with much more ease, despite the fact that my personality was being shaped by the trauma. As an adult, I am now constantly spinning the childhood stories in my head and trying to get over the trauma now that I realize what it has done to me. I hope I can start to find that quality from childhood of mindfulness again and be able to silence the voices inside my head that are constantly reliving the past so that my inner child won’t have “all of me” until the day I expire…..

All I want is everything

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All I Want Is Everything
By: Def Leppard
I don’t know how to leave you
And I don’t know how to stay
I’ve got things that I must tell you
That I don’t know how to say
The man behind these empty words
Is crying out in shame
Holding on to this sinking ship
When nothing else remains
All I want is everything
Am I asking too much?
All I want is everything
Like the feel of your touch
But all I have are yesterdays
Tomorrow never comes
It’s hard to hold your head up
When you’re kneeling down to pray
And talking don’t come easy now
When the words get in the way
If you could see what’s going on
Behind these private eyes
The truth would look so easy now
But I’m running out of lies
All I want is everything
Am I asking too much?
All I want is everything
Like the feel of your touch
But all I have are yesterdays
Tomorrow never comes
You think the shadow of doubt
Is hanging over my head
It’s just an angel
Whose wings hide the sun
And it’s myself I betray
I cannot wish this away
Took my chance
Now the damage is done
All I want is everything
Am I asking too much?
All I want is everything
Like the feel of your touch
But all I have are yesterdays
Tomorrow never comes
I think I am going to start posting a song of the day. This is my first installment 😁