Cloak of Invisibility 10/17/16

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More than two months ago I stopped posting and commenting on my regular Facebook page. It started out for one purpose, and ended up remaining as such because I realized just how insignificant and invisible I was to all of the people I was considering acquaintances and friends. It took three weeks before even one person even contacted me to see if I was ok and why I wasn’t on Facebook. That person lives in Australia and is someone I haven’t even met in person. It took almost two months for a second person to mention to me that they noticed I hadn’t been on Facebook much lately. And so I came to the conclusion, why should I be wasting so much time on social media when people don’t even take notice when I’m not around. Either they don’t notice or they are glad I’m gone.

Today I uninstalled the Facebook app from my phone to take a break from my secondary Facebook page. I am starting to read in to everything a certain person posts and feel as though some things are aimed at me. I need peace in my head. I need a break from the world. I do want to be found, I want to know people recognize my existence, miss me when I’m not there. But I am triggered daily by everyone’s inability to deal with me and my apparent negativity and Debbie Downerism. Hardly anyone seems to get me or know who I am anyway, so what is the point anyhow. I need to refocus and regain perspective on my life and recover from all of my tragedies. I need to learn to move forward. If people want to find me, they know how and where…

 

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Author: Alice Funk Farie

Adoptee, Mom of a child with Aspergers Autism, Complex-PTSD from childhood trauma, Daughter of someone with Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Dependant Personality Disorder, Empath, Indigo Child, Musician, Wife, Martial Artist, Artist, Survivor

20 thoughts on “Cloak of Invisibility 10/17/16”

    1. It is so addicting. And until I decided on a whim to deactivate at first, I would have never thought 5 months ago that I would have ever been able to go this long without Facebook. And the scariest part is, I honestly don’t really miss it. The part I miss the most will, I think, be replaced by blogging here. Good luck on your decompressing! May you find the peace in it that I am.

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      1. Is it ever. And especially now that I’ve come to realize all those people don’t even realize or care that I’m missing and are so self absorbed, why waste all that time on them. I’d rather spend it here on mind expanding topics and exchange instead of 80% of the time it being pictures of everyone’s kids, people pretending to have perfect lives to impress everyone, political slamming, and what everyone had for dinner that night….at least here we can pick the topics we engage in!!!!

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  1. Wise move to leave FB. At times I too wonder if anybody is out there. In these early days of blogging and learning how to use this form I can get so overwhelmed that I lose track of other bloggers and also myself.

    Still finding my feet . Hope you find yours too.

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    1. Thank you. And thank you for the tip as a new blogger! I’ve needed to make changes in my life, so I am Decluttering in many ways, Facebook being one of them. Boy does that take up alot of wasted space. This takes up space but I believe it is more constructive and less drama ridden, thus more beneficial to my overall mental health and development as a human being! Cheers. Thanks for reading šŸ˜

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    1. Thank you so much! I have always had issues with boundaries and telling people too much on a regular basis due to the fact that I was forced to keep a life of secrets growing up and so I always want to go the opposite way and be too open. I am hoping that maybe by using this blog as an outlet to broadcast what I feel compelled to say that maybe I will be able to maintain a healthier balance on an every day basis and not feel the need to tell everyone my life’s story. Thank you for being interested in following and my journey!

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  2. I hear you about the facebook addiction. I have an account, but I post there once a week on a closed diet group. (And only check for comments a week later when I publish my next post).
    Good luck on your journey. I’ll follow you from a distance.

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    1. With being new to this site, I am still a little ignorant as to how things work around here. I see you have a blog that is attached to an entire page. I know I can subscribe via email (but I get thousands of emails that get overwhelming). I’m very interestednin subscribing to your blog and adding you to my newsfeed within the WordPress site like all the other ones that I can just hit “follow” to, but I don’t see that as an option on yours. Is there a way I can follow you to get your blog to pop up with the new entries in my newsfeed without subscribing via email? Sorry for the newbie question. I’m usually not so computer illiterate. Thanks!

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